1. Self-love is so important. I learned how to wander alone and enjoy cherishing the time.
2. Surrounding myself with winners. You are a product of your environment. If you want to achieve greatness, you need to surround yourself with goal-orientated individuals.
3. Not to pursue friendships with those who don't pursue me.
4. Bloomington Country Club probably has the dankest food in Bloomington.
5. I need not to force finding pure love. But I pray about him. Whoever he is.
6. Never to discredit your gut instinct. Vibes are real.
7. You are a woman, you are powerful - use it. Bring every man you meet to his knees.
8. Restaurants are wasting large amounts of food everyday when people are dying from starvation.
9. Not to tell everyone everything. Be careful who you vent to. People pretend well.
10. Not to feel guilty for showing off my body. I should feel empowered by my curves. And I am.
11. Canned soda and bottled water in Cabo are definitely not the same as it is in the U.S.
12. I grow so much more when I travel and understand different worlds. Thank you Orange County, NYC, and Mexico.
13. Not to be hard on myself. Not everyone knows your secrets or guilt. Relax.
14. Racism is very much alive in our society. I experience it first hand by surrounding myself with different groups.
15. The number of "followers" a person has does not justify the fact you are better. Hitler had millions, Jesus had twelve.
16. Italian men are my weakness.
17. I learned to stop wanting everyone's acceptance. It's too hard.
18. Not being afraid to speak up. Allowing people to walk all over you is disrespectful to yourself.
19. Talking to strangers is one of the most genuine connections. I feel like I can be my true self talking to someone I don't know. And that is liberating.
20. Challenging myself to do something I never thought I could do was the most empowering feeling.
21. Winning College Cheerleading Nationals after losing to Alabama the year before by 0.15 out of 100 points is probably my biggest accomplishment. Like Saeyae Productions said, "you're not a true champion until you've overcome defeat." (video below)
it originates from human nature
it originates from circumstances
from dripping tears
to asking yourself what I did to even deserve this?
then telling yourself
you're becoming stronger because of "this"
strength stems from messed up relationships
a lack of family
a horrible parent
a boy who mistreats you, embarrasses you
or maybe a friend who has no boundaries,
who enjoys watching you drown
fortitude stems from being cheated on
you start questioning loyalty
does it even exist?
is monogamy an honest possibility?
bravery stems from you finally letting go
maybe of that person
maybe of your worries
pain inevitably leads to strength
making you silent
making you trust less
making you question every single person in your life
changing your entire outlook
emerges when you do exactly what they told you not to do
or what they told you was the impossible
for a woman,
independence comes when you no longer need validation
and i literally mean anyone
it arises when you stop relying on men in general
for your happiness
for your well-being
for the reason you get out of bed in the morning
baby, we have to love ourselves
self-love is so important
i've been let down more than enough in my life
from disappointment in Men
from disloyalty in friends
i'm numbed to it
independence for me was expected
if you are anything of these things,
know you are 100p independent,
and that's f**king empowering
you're conquering from within
"If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them"
These are just a few of the many pictures of Hannah and I that I have to cherish. I want to point out that her loss was nothing that could be controlled. She was innocent in this situation, which makes the entire scenario that much more real to me. Hannah was killed last year the second night of little 5. She went missing April 24th and her body was found brutally beaten on the side of the road about 30 minutes away from IU's campus.
Hannah had this laugh, this obnoxious and super cute laugh. The kind of laugh that makes you laugh even when you don't think the joke is funny- you simply laugh because her laugh makes you laugh! Hannah was 3 years older than me and drove me to and from cheer practices my entire freshman year. These 20 minute car rides each way gave us the time to talk about life. I was able to ask her questions about boys, friends, cheer, family without being judged. I felt completely safe when I was with Hannah. I looked forward to seeing her in the hallways at school because she would always scream my name or walk with me to the parking lot to the car. I had the opportunity to cheer with Hannah at Indiana Elite for many years. Along with cheering competitively together, she also convinced me to cheer for our high school basketball team my freshman year. When Hannah left for college, I quit the high school cheer team because it wasn't the same without her leadership. Along with many other girls on my cheer team and in my grade, I too looked up to Hannah. She was so incredibly responsible even for a senior in high school. She was really good at weighing out the pros and cons of a situation and helped me in numerous ways. Her friend group at school was a group of girls that I continue to look up to and praise. Each one carries a little bit of Hannah in them and I can see it in their walk. And I know that I too carry a lot of Hannah in my walk.
I think about her constantly. Always replaying that night in my head of what could have possibly happened, then realizing that trying to picture that night does not help me get closure. Being in Arizona, I wasn't able to fly home for Hannah's funeral, so I really feel like I never got the proper closure of her death. No one talked about it in Arizona, it wasn't on the news, and only the friends I told knew how much it affected me. I was all alone out there. It was by far the hardest last few months of school- pretty much cried myself to sleep every night until I came back to Indy for the summer.
Hannah comes from a great family. Raised by her confident mother, Robin, who is also my family veterinarian and by her father, Jeff. From them, she gathered the most admirable characteristics to make her the person she was. It is no wonder Hannah and her sister grew into such well-rounded, genuine, independent women. Her personality was so flattering, so fresh, so innocent, yet incredibly bold. Although we were 3 years apart, Hannah had a way of breaking the age barrier and treating me like we were true friends. She is the most beautiful, bright eyed girl I have ever been blessed with the chance of knowing. I want to end this post by encouraging anyone whose reading it to always be aware of your surroundings. Every room you walk into have an escape plan in your head, just in case. Be overly cautious. Question situations. Understand there are psychopaths in this world. Because Hannah could be any one of us. We all need to stick together in order to keep each other safe!
I am constantly aware of your absence, especially being a student at IU and having the privilege to cheer my last year at IU with your younger sister. What happened to you will never sit well with me. Or anyone I know. You didn't deserve that night. Literally, not one bone in your body deserved the corruption of that night.
My last memory with Hannah was my freshman year of college at GPHI. I had no intentions of even seeing Hannah that night, but I decided to walk the hallways of GPHI until I found her. I found Hannah in her cute, cozy room smiling and laughing, as she always was. I was so incredibly happy to see her. Hannah was two years older than me. I felt like I could always learn something from her, even when we cheered together at Indiana Elite. She had the best stories from high school and I could always gain something from them.
Hannah was someone I honestly adored and looked up to. She was the life of the party, but could also be quiet and respectable when she needed to be. Hannah was the girl on our team with the positive and encouraging attitude. On Senioritas (the name of our cheer team Hannah's senior year), she was the girl who went above and beyond. She was the one to actually do the correct amount of tumbling passes assigned by our coach. Hannah was never the girl who cheated her way through life. Her energy was 100p contagious. It was impossible to be in a bad mood when you were surrounded by this angel.
take a trip with me
free your mind
clear your judgment
from our guilt
from our weaknesses
to a no judge zone
light it baby
go into paradise
can I dive into your soul?
I wanna understand
what drives you?
what heals you?
are you feelin' me yet?
turn the music up
I don't wanna talk
wanna feel your presence
I'm thinkin' of you
thinking of me
can this energy be real?
am I allowed to think that?
you turn to me
fingers going through my curls
my heart beats so damn quick
why am I falling for this love?
don't be a mistake
we're too young
just love me
nothing else matters
block the noise
forget the world
all I know is us
I can make you feel
I can cure all of you
give me the chance
Written by: Katherine
our purpose in life is to grow in wisdom
from mistakes, we learn
from reflecting, we understand
our purpose in life is to be happy
what makes you smirk ear to ear
who is part of your smile
cherish those moments
our purpose is to feel free
break the rules
push the limits
why does it feel so good to be bad
our purpose is to feel
to feel deep
feelings we can't control
our purpose is to feel alive
I picture a roller coaster
the fear, the risk
the free fall state of plummeting downhill
our hearts pumping blood
the floatation of our organs
our purpose in life is to connect
grow into one another's minds
fall in love with those who show us their souls
the world is so guarded and fearful
so concerned with social norms
so concerned with embarrassment
appreciate rawness in those who open
our life 100p has purpose
our stories are important
our dreams count
our voices matter
we’re born to make an impact
Written by: Katherine